grieve

how longs it been four months? since i last posted anyways...
i still call her phone. it's comforting to hear her voice even if it is just a standard "hello! ava here, i'm not in right now, but you can leave me a message with your-"

i duno what ill do when her parents finally deactivate her phone. maybe they also call her number. ill still have that audio file of our conversation at least.

i miss ava. luca's no replacement, tom and i may not fight anymore but fuck him fuck him anyways, i dun care if hes not at fault he could have helped stop this. HE COULDA STARTED HELPING FASTER.

maybe ava is the lucky one though. lucky bitch escaped worse- no what am i saying the big sleep or the big guy which is worse anyways?

maybe i should just follow her to neverland.

Hey

Alright, back to myself guys. Sorry for so much drama on my blog, man I hate it. I made this blog to be a personal blog and I'll be fucking DAMNED if I don't at least update it with personal stuff.

So anyways, winter break was alright. I stayed with various friends over it.  Oh yeah, my favorite Christmas gift I got was:














Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww yiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis, glow stars.
(Believe me, taking this picture was actually easier than I thought. I set my camera to night sky setting and then let it expose for 60 seconds)

So yeah, how was your winter breaks, guys?

why

i hate him i hate him i hate them all just leave me alone leave me alone damn it.

Fuck his rules

http://www.chatzy.com/32608856345875

I'm on now at 9:12 pm eastern standard time, join me.

Merry Whatever You celebrate

With my luck, I'll miss fucking Christmas too.
So.... Who else saw Rise of the Guardians? I loved the movie. Where the hell are my Guardians to protect innocent me, though?

But anyways. It was visionary porn. All those details. Oh my god. I was drooling. The little frost details, the STITCHING, the feathers, the fucking sand... I love Dream Works. Everyone else go home.

Chat

So like, I'm a little more relaxed... I'm here if you wanna talk
http://us5.chatzy.com/32608856345875

The world is playing one big fucking practical joke on me.

This is bullshit. It can't be Nov 25. You're all crazy. THIS COMPUTER IS BROKEN. The internet is playing a practical joke on me...
That would mean I missed my Birthday, Thanksgiving, AND Black Friday.
No.
No.
Fuck whoever messed with my computer. This isn't fucking happening. This isn't fucking FUNNY.
I'm crying.